Heaven Knows

Not sure why, but I found "heaven knows" running through my head all day. I had to think about it to even recognize or remember what song it was, because there is only one part that seems to play over and over in my head, but the voices and music are so soothing it somehow comforts me, even though the words don't seem to really relate, or even matter.

While I am the first to admit how much I love music, I find myself somewhat puzzled by how often Syd's music moves me. I suppose it is because I know him personally, but I still find it unsettling, truly unsettling. I guess it doesn't really matter, just something I think about from time to time.

I do want to be careful though. When my grandfather died, I listened to Tuck & Patti's version of "Time After Time," too much. There was one part, "I'm walking too far ahead, you're calling to me, I can't hear what you said. Then you say, go slow, I fall behind, the second hand unwinds. If you're lost you can look and you will find me. If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting." Still reminds me of him, and in a sad way, truth is it rips me apart. I wouldn't want that with Heaven Knows, I don't want it with any song. I don't really want to relive this pain over and over and over again whenever I hear any particular song.